Your current perception of reality is not a necessary truth about the world. Other people might interpret the world in a different way, or even you might see the world differently in about 5 minutes.
Sometimes the memories are better than the experience itself.
Sometimes the memories feel worse than the experience itself.
Infinite interpretations of reality exist.
Sometimes you gotta check out before you can check in.
(...By that I mean: sometimes you have to give into what you're avoiding (feelings-fear, anger, sadness) before you can actually feel better, to feel like a complete, connected person.)
Everything is how it is, and you are your own person.