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NEW Updates!
NEW Updates!

Greetings from my Home Office,

It’s been a bit of a whirlwind (shout out to the wind!) since closing the shop last month. Most of my November was clearing out, giving away, or storing items - appropriate for the Harvest Season. 

On Monday I dropped off my key to the shop and got a text from a friend asking if I had any selenite for sale. 

Yesterday was when the emotions hit me. While I am glad I closed the shop, I was anticipating some sort of emotional processing to come up, and yesterday was that day. The emotions and thoughts that arose yesterday catalyzed the first post on my new Substack page. 

Whilst and after closing the shop, I’ve been chewing on the question - “What’s next?” One of the answers is my new Substack page, where I will be posting my writings: poetry, pontifications and likely some magical tips. Check it out if you want to follow my philosophical musings on mental health and spiritual development. 

In the meantime, you’ll notice some changes to the website with limited products and services available. I’ve had to cancel some appointments that didn’t feel right and cancel some orders for products I no longer sell, but once the dust has settled, I know I’ll be grateful I took the risk to say no, set boundaries and live more authentically.

I love you so much, and I hope you are having a warm and peaceful holiday season.

Truly,

Amanda

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PoetryAmanda Holstien
Indifferent to Results
Indifferent to Results

Whilst in my repeated contemplations of the Gita, I wonder how else I may meld its teachings into my soul.

On Monday, I was bent out of shape and trying to figure out why. In the afternoon, I turned back on the recording of this sacred text and was reminded by Lord Krishna, “You have a right to your actions, but never to your actions fruits.” Once again I had caused my own suffering through a desire and expectation!

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PoetryAmanda HolstienMother Mary's Spiritual Goods
New Moon in Gemini
New Moon in Gemini

How many disappointments have I experienced simply by my own expectations or perceptions? Is there anything that is not from the mind?

When I think about suffering and world-wide matters, I wonder what is within my pay grade? How can I bring balance to my own life and home? Is my own “house” in order? This is a major theme of The Metaphysics of Good Vibrations - turning within, not as a means of navel gazing but as a means to peel away perceptions and simply remember Who I Am.

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PoetryAmanda HolstienMother Mary's Spiritual Goods
Why I Quit Social Media
Why I Quit Social Media

Last week I realized, while floating in my mother’s pool and listening to the audio book of Autobiography of a Yogi that I was giving away my most valuable gift: my perception. As an ever-aspiring mystic, yogi, magician, what-have-you, my perception, concentration and focus is of the utmost importance for Divine Realization. I tried to find balance for 5 years, but all I was doing was...

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PoetryAmanda HolstienMother Mary's Spiritual Goods
The Metaphysics of Good Vibrations - VIP Presale
The Metaphysics of Good Vibrations - VIP Presale

I wrote The Metaphysics of Good Vibrations between 2020-2022 after completing the Rite of Abramelin, which is a special initiation that commits one’s life to a magical path of service. During this Rite, I received what is called, Knowledge and Conversation of the Holy Guardian Angel, which is just as esoteric as it sounds. After completing the Rite, my life was turned upside down and the rug pulled out from under me. In this process, I wrote The Metaphysics of Good Vibrations.

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PoetryAmanda HolstienMother Mary's Spiritual GoodsMysticism, Marfa, Poetry
West Texas Winds
West Texas Winds

I recently did a tarot reading to inquire the intention of these particularly rough West Texas winds we’ve been experiencing over the past few months. Though the cotton blowing in my back door seems to have softened the landscape, what I found in the reading was particularly interesting: The winds were sweeping in to bring balance.

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PoetryAmanda Holstien
The Mandrakes Give off a Fragrance
The Mandrakes Give off a Fragrance

by: Amanda Holstien
in Marfa, TX

“The Mandrakes Give off a Fragrance”

For Leah to give away
a night with Jacob;

The mandrakes give off a fragrance
to produce hallucinations,
hallelujah,
a secret, poetic elixir,
which is why they call it occult.
How the Song of Solomon is
an alchemical text,
the plants and perfumes
speaking their language
to activate with lemon and verbena.
One time I drank this
substance
to forfeit the mind
and induce seduction,
for it is no longer I who live,
but Christ who dwells in me.

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PoetryAmanda HolstienMother Mary's Spiritual GoodsMarfa, marfa texas, Mandrake, Herbs, Mother Mary's Spiritual Goods