Time, Surrender & the Divine

I’ve had more than a few experiences of time - in fact, it seems like I’ve had infinite experiences with time - many times on a daily basis.

I recently heard that our relationship with time is related to our relationship with the Divine - yes, that Divine. This also makes sense because Saturn, the Lord of Time, is the final planet we encounter on our journey back home to Pleroma, or what some might call Source. I prefer to say God.

I’ve also heard that our relationship with time is related to our relationship with prosperity and abundance - feeling like we don’t have enough time. Is it just a matter of prioritization?

I love doing what I love, which often involves work and also often involves play. Sometimes I think of work as something that makes me money, and sometimes I think of work as something that refines me. I’ve heard that a magician of power is one who sees work as play.

Maybe you’ve heard that expression that we are “Human Being”s not “Human Doing”s.

Releasing expectations is part of this process for me. We hear so much about setting clear intentions. What if we are already content? Do monks set clear intentions for anything other than enlightenment? Or do they release those intentions and expectations too?

In the 12 Steps, we reflect on Step 11, which says, “Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood God, praying only for knowledge of God’s will for us and the power to carry that out.”

This step reminds me on Solomon’s request to the Lord - asking only for wisdom, and from that wisdom everything is added unto him.

After all, isn’t wisdom “knowledge of God’s will for us and the power to carry that out?”

A deeper level of surrender is what this requires for me, especially when I ponder questions like, “What’s so wrong with praying for a Cadillac?” And I’m still not sure that there’s anything wrong with this, but my studies have lead me to the current conclusion that it is far better to give than to receive - to pray for others rather than myself.

Though I will confess I put my requests out to the Universe for the prayer warriors who long for someone to pray for - it helps them after all. So I’ll allow someone else to pray for me, while I pray for someone else.

What does this have to do with time? Something about the inescapable, unavoidable, perception of a prison and the search to break free from this perception. Word on the street is that Englightenment is already now; it’s just a matter of remembering over and over, like the Ouroboros.

I often enjoy posing questions more than receiving an answer, and I often enjoy surrendering beyond any conception or feeling.

We can’t explain God, after all. Why would we want to? God is beyond conception, beyond the perceived prison of time, space, dimension or even being/non-beingness itself. The Highest God is not a dualistic God, which ironically is very Good in its Beyond Goodness. Hallelujah.

When I start to compare my findings and journey with those of other mystics, magicians and seekers, I am reminded that there are Infinite ways of being, and that I do not know everything, nor is everything to be known. Hallelujah.